My mental strength first

Nowdays I am going through some hard mental time. It doesn’t mean that I am broke. Every moment I am learning some thing new. I got some friends they really don’t know, who is their father? So far they are mentally upset. Last time when I meet them I just told them to cheer up but all the time they looks sad & little bit lack of trust to the people. They can’t trust people so easily. That time I always told them that make the life beautiful. If we try we can make the life beautiful. They always feels mental pressure. Now days I can realize there feelings. I got a very simple problem in my life. But it takes a log period of time from me to over come. Some moments of life are very hard to erase. I am trying to make my life like last time but I am going through some hard time. But it is true I am learning everyday. We can change our life by our doings but we need that kind of mental strength to do it. Some words are very easy to say but to follow up in the real life it is very hard to do. Now days I stop giving suggestion to the people. Because I believe I need to get my mental strength first. Over coming slowly slowly. But I believe Allah will give me power more than last time.

Victory of Failure

Today when I woke up, I just remember only one thing that I fail to make my parents happy. So I was so upset since morning. Now days many of my seniors just ask me why I looks so deadly. Not like last time. This kind of personal thing I can’t share with anyone. I am such a person who couldn’t manage to make my parents happy the day I bourn till today. I just gave them only one thing is called problem. So after noon one of my friend called me & ask me to go out with him. We went out together. My friend is facing same problem. Can’t get a wife for him. We can see many females in the society but how to get our type from the society? Both of us fail to get one. We just share how stupid we are that can’t get a single wife for us. Many people got many girlfriends & we can’t get a good girl for us. The problem we are searching girls of our type. Which we called “Our types” make all the problem. Some times I think that I might be the stupid one that makes the thing hard. I never think that my wife will do this or that for me. But I want my wife will follow the commands what Allah has given to us. Some time I feels better to live this world alone. But as a human I have to get married. Some times I think why I am so confused? I can’t do this & that. I believe I need some times to make mind in track. But I enjoy my beautiful evening with my friend. This is my picture……………. A 100% failure person in life…………………………

Eat like a dog & shit like a pig. Victory for failure in life. I always represent the failure with victory........

This picture represent me that I am a 100% stupid man

This Picture represnt my life. Front side is bright but the back is totally dark & dark

My house Dog is better than me...........

I am a failure to make my parents happy. This is one of my most unsuccessful achievements of my life. I always try to make my parents happy. That is one of the reasons that I want to follow the Seattle marriage. My mother will choose the girl for me. So I believe if they choose the girl for me then they will get a different kind of peace in their heart. True to say I got my own wish. As a mature person I like some character of the females. I sacrifice of those only to make my parents happy. My life is like this, can’t do anything properly. I am a pure stupid useless piece of rust metal in the dustbin. I went back to my family. But I fail to make my parents happy. When I went back to my family that time I got a message that, the girl my parents choose she got boyfriend. So all the dreams my parents dreamed become a broken mirror. I never think that I will fail to makes my parents happy. I try my best to make my parents happy & give them a peace. But I am a stupid dump. I don’t know why from my child hood I gives them only trouble. Trouble without anything. Some times I can’t imagine the way I makes their life messy. Some times I think my house dog is better that me. At least my dogs give the service to my parents. What I did? Nothing but the problems to them. I thought I will give them a very good & happy moment. But when we know the girl my parents choose for me she got boyfriend all the things go very very hard for us. My parents look at me & cry. They start blaming them selves. I am such a thing that can’t make my God & parents happy. I don’t how to express. Only thing I can do cry in the toilet. In front of the parents I can’t cry. I have to show them my happy face. Now the time I am going through to makes my parents happy, I have to do drama, that I am very happy. What kind of hypocrite I am! Some times I just think I need to improve my self a lot. Because I am stupid & dump that’s why I fail to make my parents happy.

Money For Nothing

What is the purpose of money? We need a good house & food. Other things we go for what? Now days what I can see…………… Log in the internet people open porn website. Pay money to download those. People go for live together & enjoy life by money. Some take afim, heroin, eyaba, ice. For what? Just to get some mental peace by money. Are we in the right path. We make our mother hood nude in the internet & some beast like to pay money for those. We human encourage the bad people to do that kind of things. Sex for what? This is a gift from God for Husband & Wife. But real time what we do? We buy sex through money. At the end what we get? Sleeping with a female for a while & enjoy. Is there any difference between dogs & human? Dogs do like that but can’t pay. But human can pay money. Some times some male get girlfriend just for sex! Same like dog. Only sex. This kind of people are curse for the society. Why why man go for this kind of things. Some females are also like this. What I found from my research at the end suffer is the female. Either get pregnant or kicked out from the society. We human go only for money & sex. Never think to love our family & nature. Why we never take care our children properly? Why we never try to fix problem in the society? Why we human hunger for sex? …………………………… At the end of our life we have to die. Money can’t take with us. Our soul & deeds will follow us…………………. Money for what?

Eid event in MMU

Last three years all the motivation & help I got in my personal life from these three brothers. Actually we are so close like we can read each others mind by see each others face.
I am with my committee members in the Eid event and our President is with us in the event.
This is me & one of my good friend. One very funny thing happened on the event. All the foreigner we dress black color. It looks very funny. We never discuss about our dress & color. But in the event it looks very funny. All foreigners dress black.

What do Muslims believe about Jesus?

Muslims respect and revere Jesus (peace be upon him) , and await his second coming. They consider him one of the greatest of God’s messengers to mankind....
A Muslim never refers to him simply as `Jesus', but always adds the phrase "peace be upon him." The Qur’aan confirms his virgin birth (a chapter of the Qur’aan is entitled `Mary') in her time, and Mary is considered the purest woman in all creation. The Qur’aan describes the creation of Jesus as follows (interpretation of the meaning):
"Behold! the Angel said, `God has chosen you, and purified you, and chosen you above the women of all nations. O Mary, God gives you glad tidings of a word from Him, whose name shall be the Messiah, Jesus son of Mary, honored in this world and the Hereafter, and one that shall speak to the people from his cradle and in maturity, and shall be of the righteous.' She said: `O my Lord! How shall I have a son when no man has touched me?' He said: `Even so; God creates what He wills. When He decrees a thing, He but says to it, "Be!" and it is." [Quran 3:42-7]Jesus (peace be upon him) was born miraculously through the same power which had brought Adam (peace be upon him) into being without a father:"Truly, the likeness of Jesus unto Allaah is as the likeness of Adam. He created him of dust, and then said to him, `Be!' and he was." [ Quran 3:59 ]During his prophetic mission, Jesus (peace be upon him) was granted and performed many miracles. The Qur’aan tells us that he said (interpretation of meaning):"I have come to you with a sign from your Lord: I make for you out of the clay, as it were, the figure of a bird, and breathe into it and it becomes a bird by Allaah’s leave. And I heal the blind and the lepers, and I raise the dead by Allaah’s leave." [Quran 3:49]Other miracles include speaking soon after birth in defense of his mother's piety. God's other gifts to him included healing the blind and the sick, reviving the dead, and, most importantly, the message he was carrying. These miracles were granted to him by God to establish him as a prophet. According to the Qur’aan, he was not crucified, but only appeared so; instead, Allaah raised him unto Heaven. (Quraan, Chapter Maryam) Neither Muhammad (peace be upon him), nor Jesus (peace be upon him), came to change the basic doctrine of the belief in one God, brought by earlier prophets, but to confirm and renew it. In the Quran Jesus (peace be upon him), is reported as saying that he came: " To attest the law which was before me. And to make lawful to you part of what was forbidden you; I have come to you with a sign form your Lord, so fear God and obey me." [Quran 3:50]

Getting Selfish

I learn one big facts today. More & more the world is progressing more & more we are getting selfish. The output we can see the social disorder in our life. We never think for our parents, family, friends & most important our God. We just go for our vision. Never think of our life what we are trying to get? Only money & sex. Is this real life? Some go for females. This week this female & next week another one. But they forgot that they got mother. Some go for money. The way they are getting money is legal or not? The way we are working is it harming the society? We just think our self only. This is the big fact now days that no one is caring for others. So the output is clubbing, free sex, drugs, Aids, school kids get chain smoker, no one care for old parents. When we see bad we never stop any one. So every one do the same thing then who will protest against the bad? Now days can feel only one thing! Am I a human? Do I have the character of human? I believe I become a stupid robot what our society want. Now days we don’t have any principle. Only one thing we follow is money. This money will makes us monkey very soon……………….

Today get insulted by the young brother sisters.

Today I am very frustrated. Some of my close young sisters insult me today. I feel very bad. I never ask help from them to help me. What I ask to help Islam. But at the end what I get? I got very good, interesting & diplomatic harsh sentence. Why my life is like this I have no Idea. Some times I think I shouldn’t believe any human. I don’t know, May be I did a great sin that’s why God is giving me punishment in this world & after death full hell fire. Some times I trust my young brother & sisters. They give their commitments. But at the end they turn up & show me their back. Now I am thinking what I am doing? How I will full fill the gap? How to over come my mind. I am a very emotional person, only when any of my close young brothers & sisters tells me bad. Today I feel like I eat my own shit. Life I have to carry on. But the way I get heat by the close people I can’t digest these any more. I never push them too much only thing I ask them to help me for Allah that is the problem. Now I don’t know how to cry…………… I need to go to toilet & need to cry for ten to fifteen minutes.

My life in the Christian Fellow Ship camp

Our group picture in the Camp. My friends all the time welcome me to join the camp.

I am in PD with my friends. I am at the back side of the church. This place is a very romantic place to enjoy but I was alone. My wife is where I don't know? This kind of moments I always miss my wife. Grab her hand and walk alone. What a romantic time but I was alone & still praying to Allah for my wife.

I am inside the Church. I know a lot from my friends. Many unknown things I discover from the camp.

This is the place we went for Fellowship Camp. This is a place where we can know a lot about Christian religion. No matter I am a Muslim & my religion is Islam but Islam always teach us to search for truth & learn more. So I belive I went to the right place to know more about Christian Religion.

My Thinking

Today I don't know why I am thinking that I didn't enjoy my life. From my child hood I got chance to enjoy my life but I never enjoy my life becasue of responsibilities. My friends all of them enjoy all the time. They go here there. But for me I can't go here there. I always think that I have to ask money from my father. The I feels very shy to ask money from my father. All the time I go through this kond of problems. Some times I earn money but that time I feels like I should not enjoy. I reserve those money for my tution fees. Now days I think then when I will enjoy my life. Some times I think when I will deside to enjoy my life that time my mind will not support me to enjoy. Why I am like this? Why why! Some times I think I am a pure stupid. Nowdays I am really feels very upset about my life. What I did till now? What I will do? All the things are very dark about my life. My father think that I will be some one very soon. But I think I will be nothing. Nowdays I don't like to go out from my room. I would like stay alone & don't like to talk with any one. Why I am doing this & why I am thinking like this way I don't know. May be ALlah knows.

My cousin Omi

This is my cousin. His name is Omi. We were on the way fromChittagong to Dhaka. But on the way he got heavy pressure of natural call. So when he was realising his raw material I took the best shots. Hai Omi. How is the pic?

My Birthday

Yesterday was my birthday. Normally I don’t like to celebrate my birthday. I think, I lost one year from my life. Most of the people wish me that I will get a good wife. But now I believe that most of the females search for security. They never try to get a good human. Now days I can’t think to get married with a woman. For me Woman is a common problem some subject. I am not saying all the females are bad. No, but most of them are like that. I believe life means sacrifice & mutual understand. But how many of us now want to do sacrifice normal day life. All we go for money & rich life. Some one want to be a professional, some one want to be a MD but no one want to be a good house wife. All of them just think to enjoy the life. For me this is not life. Happy life means sharing & spend time for each other. So now days I just think only one thing. No need to get married. Be a good human & lead the life. For me females are very poisonous. It is like Poison Ive.

Some special moments

Be careful I am the Man...............

This is one of the ancient old Hindu Temple where Hindu Believe that Sita was send to the jungleand this is the place. I couldn't manage to get in because I am Muslim.

This is my naughty nephew

My Mother & Father

One of my distance relative. He can eat lots of food.

I am with my traditional dress. All the student ware traditional dress. One my young MMU sister want to took picture with my traditional dress

This is one of my beloved brother in Malaysia

f Allah gave me one Brother then I would ask Allah to give a brother like Reza

Alone life in Malaysia. Some times I feels very frustrated.

I believe if I become mad one day I am sure I will looks like this or more worse.

Moheskhali

This pagoda where Buddha always did meditation. He choose this place because it is top of the island & no human stay there that time. Only some animals.

Inside the temple got 25 feet long Buddhas statue. People can't take picture because it is made of very ancient old metal which is called eighth metal. Looks like gold.

Why they are praying this Elephant & Rat? I don't get this concept of worship.

Moheskhali

This female young monk is praying. She get little bit angry with me when I took the picture.

Moheskhali

This is the Pagoda where all the male females monk stay & do worship.

Moheskhali

I am in the Sea of Bangle. I am going to the island called MohesKhaki. I spend 30 minutes by speed boat to visit the most ancient city where Buddha went.

My Life

Power is not your's

It comes from out of the Earth

Be careful, we shall have to be back

Power itself can run

Power is not your fun

Power is dirty Bull

Power makes a man Fool

Love is not a bluff & puff

Keep it holy and clean

Never make it rough

Crying for Heaven & Hell

But where is it & how to get?

Misuse makes you, every thing fade

Batter you thing for, butter & bread

She might be a princess,

But --- the

Beautiful, devoted on beauty

Thats is my happiness

Not the open Eyes

Close can see, more and more

If some one lost the love

Wants to hide

is it the artist on you, MONALISA?

Took the ride

The World has a

Command and contro system

That is Al-Quran.

This is very much clean that

Once you must end the run.