My Thinking

Today I don't know why I am thinking that I didn't enjoy my life. From my child hood I got chance to enjoy my life but I never enjoy my life becasue of responsibilities. My friends all of them enjoy all the time. They go here there. But for me I can't go here there. I always think that I have to ask money from my father. The I feels very shy to ask money from my father. All the time I go through this kond of problems. Some times I earn money but that time I feels like I should not enjoy. I reserve those money for my tution fees. Now days I think then when I will enjoy my life. Some times I think when I will deside to enjoy my life that time my mind will not support me to enjoy. Why I am like this? Why why! Some times I think I am a pure stupid. Nowdays I am really feels very upset about my life. What I did till now? What I will do? All the things are very dark about my life. My father think that I will be some one very soon. But I think I will be nothing. Nowdays I don't like to go out from my room. I would like stay alone & don't like to talk with any one. Why I am doing this & why I am thinking like this way I don't know. May be ALlah knows.