Saturday, November 24, 2007

My house Dog is better than me...........


I am a failure to make my parents happy. This is one of my most unsuccessful achievements of my life. I always try to make my parents happy. That is one of the reasons that I want to follow the Seattle marriage. My mother will choose the girl for me. So I believe if they choose the girl for me then they will get a different kind of peace in their heart. True to say I got my own wish. As a mature person I like some character of the females. I sacrifice of those only to make my parents happy. My life is like this, can’t do anything properly. I am a pure stupid useless piece of rust metal in the dustbin. I went back to my family. But I fail to make my parents happy. When I went back to my family that time I got a message that, the girl my parents choose she got boyfriend. So all the dreams my parents dreamed become a broken mirror. I never think that I will fail to makes my parents happy. I try my best to make my parents happy & give them a peace. But I am a stupid dump. I don’t know why from my child hood I gives them only trouble. Trouble without anything. Some times I can’t imagine the way I makes their life messy. Some times I think my house dog is better that me. At least my dogs give the service to my parents. What I did? Nothing but the problems to them. I thought I will give them a very good & happy moment. But when we know the girl my parents choose for me she got boyfriend all the things go very very hard for us. My parents look at me & cry. They start blaming them selves. I am such a thing that can’t make my God & parents happy. I don’t how to express. Only thing I can do cry in the toilet. In front of the parents I can’t cry. I have to show them my happy face. Now the time I am going through to makes my parents happy, I have to do drama, that I am very happy. What kind of hypocrite I am! Some times I just think I need to improve my self a lot. Because I am stupid & dump that’s why I fail to make my parents happy.

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